My  husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature,  and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Three  years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to  admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him  before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.
I  am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a  relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a  little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his  lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments  into our marriage has disheartened me about love.
One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.
“Why?”  he asked, shocked. “I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in  the world!” I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in  deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times. My feeling of  disappointment only increased, here was a man who can’t even express his  predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me:”  What can I do to change your mind?”
Somebody  said it right, it’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess,  I have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I slowly  answered : “Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my  heart, I will change my mind, Let’s say, I want a flower located on the  face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower  will cause your death, will you do it for me?” He said :” I will give  you your answer tomorrow….” My hopes just sank by listening to his  response.
I  woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper  with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining  table near the front door, that goes…. My dear, “I would not pick that  flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further..”  This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.
“When  you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you  cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help  to restore the programs. You always leave the house keys behind, thus I  have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you. You love  traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes  to show you the way. You always have the cramps whenever your “good  friend” approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can  calm the cramps in your tummy.
You  like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by  infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories  to cure your boredom. You always stare at the computer, and that will do  nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow  old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying  white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the  beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand… and tell you  the color of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young  face… Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves  you more than I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. ”
My  tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting… and  as I continue on reading… “Now, that you have finished reading my  answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am  standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk… I rush to  pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his  hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread….
Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone…
That’s  life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of  excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies  in between the peace and dullness.
Love  shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never  been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and  romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the  relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands… and that’s  our life… Love, not words win arguments…

left me in tears too... thanks for sharing... lots of love and God bless! :)
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